I do not understand why the only men I attract are people from my past. Nothing ever happened, although I’m wishing it did with this Papi. But it didn’t because, I expect to get courted. And if a guy cannot court me and then ask me out on a date then I’m not wasting my time. I am not asking for much. All I ask is to be respected. And if you are interested then ask me out on a date, dayum!
So I have known this “Chocolate Puddin Papi Lindo” for a couple years now. I was attracted to him from the moment I laid eyes on him and I know he was attracted to me too. I saw him take a double look when he saw me. I had on a tight black strapless dress with some high heeled snake print black stilettos. My hair was out and straight, no curls on this day. I wanted to look conservative but sexy.
So it has only been a mild flirtation for the last couple years. Until last summer, I had not seen him for a while and then we bumped into each other. When he saw me walk in the door he took a double look and then walked out the door, to get a breath of air, I imagine. Yes, I nearly took, his breath away. But what he didn’t know is that he took my breath away too. He always looking sharp. I mean, this Chocolate Puddin Papi Lindo is 6’4 and all muscle and he has this milk chocolate skin that I bet tasted as sweet as butter. He is sooo delicious looking. Uggg, why did I not take advantage of him! Oh, yea, that’s right , I have standards!
Anyway, after that day I hadn’t seen him for 3 weeks and then he confessed he had a mad crush on me but I just think that was a line he used. I think he is one of those guys who likes to admire women from afar. It’s like a fetish of his or something. The other reason is he probably has someone already and doesn’t want to say to see if he can have something on the side with me. Which is probably what he is used to from all the other hoochies he meets. But I am not like them. I expect a man to work to get me. Of course I’ll make it worth his time. But rules are rules and I didn’t make this up. Anyway, this papi is very hot!
So since then we have texted on and off. Here we go again with the texting but not all the time. He actually knows how to pick up the phone and call somebody. We lost communication for 6 months. I don’t know what happened. It just stopped. I didn’t call him and he stopped calling me. I guess it was too much work to text me.
We started textin me a couple months ago. I responded. I wasn’t going to be mean. He said he could not stop thinking about me and was interested in getting to know me. So he said he was away on vacation and would be available to me when he got back. So we set a day to meet. But I was expecting him to plan it out. Then he ask me where we were meeting. OK, now I see what is going on. Papi Lindo thinks that if I suggest the meeting location, he does not have to spend money on a date. But I wanted to see if this was the case. So I told him to plan it and call me with a location to meet. He calls me 10 min. later to tell me his grandfather died and he just got notified of it so he needed to take a rain check. Wow, seriously, you’re going to use that excuse. Ok, so I put too much pressure on him. I told him ok. He called me later that night and thanked me for being understanding. The only problem is, he never set another date that night. So that’s how I knew he was not interested. The calls started to fade and i did not make an attempt to reach out to him.
A couple weeks go by, no text, until today. When he text me its always to tell me he is thinking about me and he wants me to know this. So, I asked him why does he think about me and he poetically reveals how beautiful and intelligent I am which in his perspective is a rare combo. So, I’m thinking, ok, then why have you not made any attempt to see me. So I ask him if he was seeing someone or if I did not show enough interested because I am aware that sometimes guys pull back because of this reason. And he went around the question.
He goes on to explain that in the past he was shallow and how he used to date beautiful women but no intelligence so he got bored. Then he said that he thought money and a chic was enough bit it wasn’t. So now he just wants things to be simple, like he would appreciate just sitting on the steps and talking with me. He finds that so sexy. Really!? So, basically what he is saying to me is that he wasted time and money on some skank, so they ruined it for a nice girl like me. Which basically is my feelings exactly because I have dated and invited guys over to my place and cooked for them and it got me nowhere because they get used to that and then didn’t want to take me out or give me a commitment.
So now what…we wait for the other to make a move. He said something about doing things in the right timing. Seriously, some of the excuses I hear!
I do not understand why guys bother to call. I guess he wants me to invite him over to sit on my stoop…whats wrong with his stoop!? Probably he don’t want the Mrs. to see me on his stoop, right!?
Diary of a Single Mamacita 